Well it’s been two weeks since I started E. It amazes me to be able to say that it’s probably been the best two weeks of my life.
I started HRT with few expectations. To be honest I was expecting it would be an immediate disaster. I was sure I would have terrible migraines or hot flushes, I knew it would make me ill and I would have to stop.
Estrogen has given me a calm serenity I have never known before. It has taken away the constant feeling of dread/foreboding that was alway with me. I just feel at one with the world.
I cried for the first time in forever on Saturday. I was telling my wife about a story I read about a the experiences of a couple who had to go through a still birth and my tears welled up and I sobbed. My wife comforted me and it felt good to let go of my emotions.
One downside is I’ve lost my confidence pulling out of junctions and I hesitate. It’s not like me but I now need it to be clear in both directions which in the morning is difficult.
Transphoria Blues 